Observations and update

A couple of recent observations experienced after the ingestion of black grapes and soursop tea.
About a week ago I made some soursop tea using 4 or 5 leaves which I steeped for an hour. Then I filled a syringe with the tea to use as a tincture and mixed half of the syringe with 1 litre of water which was repeated the following day.

The lake lookin' pretty

Later that evening I noticed a few blood clots in the urine which stopped overnight. 2 days ago I ate a pound of black grapes and later that day I experienced more blood clots which has since cleared up.
Of course, I have no idea whether this is a positive or a negative sign although it is a reminder that something (tumour) is still there.

Generally, I feel ok with occasional nausea and dizziness that I am told by Alex and Jos is the result of the ingestion of oil. Urine is discoloured first thing in the morning (tea coloured) but clears during the day as I drink lots of water. Also I am careful not to strain the bladder by bending over or lifting heavy weights but this could be construed as an excuse for not doing very much physical stuff (smile).
So, the show goes on and I say many thanks for the em@ils of support that I have received.

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Thinking that you know what to do or what not to do when confronted with a tangible situation is the norm. When a situation arises that is not tangible then thinking what "to do or not to do" becomes more complicated simply because fear of the unknown is the normal response which completely overpowers the decision making process.
This fear is carefully introduced into our psyche and to overcome it requires an understanding of insecurity, intuition, independence and the acceptance of knowing that which cannot be known. Oh dear! always the paradox.
Anyway, to the point.
I feel great. No chemotherapy, no radiation and a general feeling of well being. Am I well? I don't know.

Tikal, Guatemala. 21-12-2012

Every day at least:
Marijuana oil (about 1 gram). Juice (carrots,spinach,lime,beetroot). No processed food, no refined sugar, no refined salt and only olive oil for cooking, sex in moderation limited by imagination and the occasional beer or single malt whisky courtesy of Jose.
Yes I do eat breakfast across the street sometimes and the eggs are probably cooked with cooking oil but I excuse these minor delinquencies as well as the ingestion of the occasional ice-cream for reasons that I cannot recall (Reagan). 

This is my experience...Now.

Soursop (Guanabano) tea, Zen garden and a book

I write juiced up, oiled up and about to drink some tea made from two leaves of the Guanabano tree. The very informative book awaits another reader.

A day on the lake at Julio's place

Sunday was a good day to visit Julio as all the guests had checked out and the place was empty.

View looking north

Of course I arrived stoned out of my mind having driven for half an hour at an average speed of about 25 miles an hour. Spent the whole day pottering around completely engrossed in the natural sounds without any music or other interruptions. Later drank a couple of beers, dinner then all night in a hammock.

View looking south

The next morning after a couple of cups of coffee I sat in a chair right at the edge of the beach and succumbed to the peace and tranquility. Drove back to the marina and later that day discovered some blood in the urine and a couple of blood clots. Needless to say I was somewhat disappointed, drank lots of water and went to bed.
This morning, Tuesday, more blood but no clots and it is now clearing after copious amounts of water and I have just taken my daily dose of the oil having previously bought a big bag of dog-food for "Peanuts". Now I feel slightly woozy so this post is almost concluded and I wish the reader a great day.

The show must go on

It may be early days for this post but in view of the many different forms in which this disease manifests itself, any significant positive results should be documented.
So, for the last week I have been feeling much better with no more symptoms of nausea, less pain urinating and a general overall feeling of getting better. In fact, I hardly feel sick at all now.
Unfortunately there is only about one more week of oil remaining and although there are 4 more plants growing (hopefully female) it will a couple of months before they mature.
In the meantime I keep well hydrated peeing frequently and monitoring the output with an enthusiasm bordering on mental illness (nothing new in that respect). Diet is simple.... rice and beans, olive oil for cooking, sea salt and unprocessed sugar. Once in a while the occasional ice-cream, ice cold beer and watered down red wine (for the reservatrol).

Hola, my name is Kailin.
I am 15 years old from
Izabal, Guatemala

I have a mission to try and accomplish now, a game perhaps that requires a good sense of humour, patience and some understanding.
Perhaps this post will encourage or at least give food for thought to all cancer patients who are considering an alternative treatment in addition to or in place of chemotherapy/radiation etc.
The show must go on.

The continuation

About a month ago I started using marijuana oil orally approximately 1 gram per day. The obvious effects of this were a feeling of being spaced out all day and all night which I did not like at all. The internal effects of the drug are unknown at this time but suffice to say that the symptoms of bladder cancer have not gone.

 The urologist recommended chemotherapy at first and later after the 2nd non-invasive surgery changed his mind and suggested radiation. As of this date I have resisted both these treatments with a clear view that a radical cystectomy (removal of the bladder) may well be the only option available if matters deteriorate.

In the drier

In the meantime, photograph shows last of the buds drying before being stored in the freezer. It is still a little green but dry enough to smoke (not me!!)

The importance of being earnest

Some information in way of an update. The marijuana oil made from sinsemilla buds is very strong to say the least and I have not taken it for the last couple of days because it made me feel completely disorientated. The feeling wasn't bad, just different.
I received a couple of bottles of colloidal silver from Richard, a buddy from Belize and have been drinking this for about a week and have no idea what effect this is having but the combination of this plus the oil seems to have cleared up a skin blemish that had persisted for about a year which I had been treating with antibiotic ointment.
No blood clots in the urine for about 10 days although some discolouration occurs usually in the morning, also no more pain from the bladder which I had experienced all day every day. So, 3 days supply of oil is remaining until the other plants mature and my intention is to continue with the treatment starting again tomorrow.
This is a psychological nightmare because of the many unknown variables which contribute to the affliction and which nobody can truly identify as the root cause of the problem whether it be a physical or a mental phenomena. With some brevity I must consider it may be a combination of both (hehehe).
Chin up all you cancer people, you could be George Bush or Tony Blair.........Thatcher, of course, is well out of the picture.
Happy days!!